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wookie_x ([personal profile] wookie_x) wrote2009-06-27 02:28 am
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On mortality and reclusive nature

Well, on June 25, 2009 Michael Jackson died at age 50. I'm not going to discuss any of the allegations of the last years. I'm not interested. But it did get me thinking. I didn't know any of the details of his death. I'd heard he died of a heart attack. He was 10 years older than me. My mind went to work inventing what I imagined to be the circumstances of his death. Knowing he was reclusive, and that heart attacks are frequently NOT immediately fatal (statistics show only about 5%). So I assumed that he was alone when he had the heart attack, and wasn't found for some time. That got me thinking about my own health and reclusive nature. I don't want to die alone. Years ago, a friend of a friend in Missouri died. It was summer time, he was alone, and the body wasn't found for weeks. I can't stand the thought of ending up like that. The problem is, as I grow older, my reclusive nature becomes stronger and I don't know how to stop that. It's something that I'll have to work on, among all my other self-improvement projects.

[It should be noted that most of my initial imaginings surrounding the circumstances of his death were completely false.]